A "Free" way to support our charity / Sabrina McNeil (mom)
A way to support our foundation thats free to you: GoodSearch is a search engine powered by Yahoo. Each time you search the web with GoodSearch's Yahoo-powered search engine about a penny will go to our charity. Also every time you shop online at 1000 participating stores including Amazon, eBay, Target, Apple, Staples, Expedia, etc., a percentage of your purchase will be donated for free! The site also has thousands of money-saving coupons! To give you a sense of how the money can add up the ASPCA has already earned more than $30,000!
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All the Easter stuff is out. This is one of the hardest. Easter was the last holiday we got to spend with you. It reminds us so much of you. I remember you coloring eggs. Gently was definitely not something you had mastered. :) I remember you hunting for eggs in the yard wearing your spiderman jammies that would never stay up and your cowboy boots. We had so much fun the four of us playing with all the toys the easter bunny had brought. Peanut butter cups for breakfast. This spring has been very hard. It is the date on the calendar getting closer and closer. It was a beautiful sunny day when you got sick. And that is what the sun seems to keep reminding me of. I love you. I miss you. Love MOM 3/19/10
Sticky fingers ' tangled hair scattered crayons everywhere. Fancy artwork ' on the wall ' drawn by midgets ' three feet tall. Tell me why ' and tell me how ' that was mine ' I want it NOW! Fix my bike. Buy me gum. If you have it I want some. Dirty faces grass-stained knees learning words ' like pretty please. Endless hugs & goofy wet kisses learning respect with 'Mr.' & 'Mrs.' Scraped-up hands from falling down. Tender tugs - - on my night gown. Need more paper ' for Santa's letter? I wasn't so bad ' but I've been better. Watching a movie ' again and again ' Mommy please ' put the tape back in. Messy fingers ' hair gone wild ' all in the life ' of a precious child !!
The golden moments in the stream of life rush past us and we see nothing but sand; the angels come to visit us and we only know them when they are gone.
(George Elliot)
You were always an angel, we just couldnt see your wings. I took it for granted. Never again will I let life go by without stopping to smell the flowers (or stomp one or two :).Who knew a 2 yr old little boy could teach us such a big life lesson. Was that your purpose? I know what kind of mom I will always strive to be. My regret is that you are not here for me to be that mom to you. But you are my inspiration. My motivation. I love you forever. Love, MOM 3/12/10
Stinky D / Sabrina McNeil (mom)
The mention of my child’s name may bring tears to my eyes but it never fails to bring music to my ears. If you really are my friend let me hear the beautiful music of my child’s name. It soothes my broken heart and sings to my soul."
Temporary Home lyrics (Carrie Underwood) / Sabrina McNeil (mom)Read >>
Temporary Home lyrics (Carrie Underwood) / Sabrina McNeil (mom)
Little boy six years old A little too used to being alone Another new mom and dad another school Another house that’ll never be home
When people ask him how he likes this place He looks up and says with a smile upon his face
This is my temporary home It’s not where I belong Windows and rooms that I’m passing through This is just a stop on the way to where I’m going I’m not afraid because I know This is my temporary home
Mmmmm
A young mom on her own She needs a little help got no where to go She’s looking for a job looking for a way out ‘Cause a half-way house will never be a home
At night she whispers to her baby girl Someday we’ll find our place here in this world
This is our temporary home It’s not where we belong Windows and rooms that we’re passing through This is just a stop on the way to where we’re going I’m not afraid because I know This is our temporary home
Old man hospital bed The room is filled with people he loves And he whispers “don’t cry for me I’ll see you all someday”
He looks up and says “I can see God’s face”
This is my temporary home It’s not where I belong Windows and rooms that I’m passing through This was just a stop on the way to where I’m going I’m not afraid because I know This was my temporary home ...
(Thats what gets me through, this is only temporary. I'll meet you there, Stinky D. Love, MOM) 2/27/2010
The Dylan McNeil Foundation / Sabrina McNeil (mom)Read >>
The Dylan McNeil Foundation / Sabrina McNeil (mom)
We have been working hard on Dylan's foundation website and are now up and running. Our goal is to raise money for St. Jude Children's Research Hospital, Infectious Disease Department. The main focus of their research lab is meningitis. Thank you to everyone for your help and support:
Spring is coming. Which brings on new firsts. New triggers. As I sat in my car yesterday waiting for Ryan I watched a mom and her little boy playing. It reminded me of our last time playing on that same playground. You were feeling independent and wanted to go down the slide by yourself. As I silently had an anxiety attack I watched you go. You got scared and didnt want to do it again. I secretly smiled thankful you would want me with you for just a little while longer.
I love you. Love MOM 2/17/2010
First Stage of Grief – Isolation and Denial Shock is the premier reaction many individuals experience when they lose their loved one. It is a protective instinct by the mind to protect the individual from onslaught of emotions. After the shock wears off the bereaved person may face trouble in accepting the death.
Second stage of Grief – Anger After the denial wears off and the individual accepts the reality he faces, then emergence of immense pain. On many occasions such immense pain is transformed into anger. An individual may direct this anger on himself or to others like family members friends health professionals . The ultimate result of this anger is guilt that brings more anger.
Third Stage of Grief – Bargaining This stage is characterized by “snap back” of the grieving individual. In this stage the bereaved may begin to take back control. Many people rationalize their mind with various “what if” scenes. Many unanswerable questions appear on the bereaved person’s mind during this stage.
Fourth stage of Grief In the fourth stage of grief bereaved individuals understand the intensity of the loss. The bereaved is convinced about the reality accept the changes occurred by such loss and also try to cope with the fact their life has been altered and the life couldn’t be the same as was earlier. This stage is characterized by emotions like regret and deep sadness. At times these emotions are accompanied with worries about other loved ones.
Fifth stage of Grief – Acceptance This stage does not infer that the bereaved individuals have overcome the loss and are living happily. Acceptance denotes that the bereaved individuals have accepted the reality, death of their loved one and make their mind to life without the deceased. Their mind processes the grief and become aware of the fact that they are still alive. In this stage the more focus is on “how” and earlier focused “why” takes the rear seat. In other words the bereaved try to cope up with the loss and makes efforts to live without their leaved ones.
as i brush my teeth this a.m i remembered how you sat on the counter and brushed yours with me. beautiful smile. happy face. then AH DONE!!!!. Thank you God for Dylan. For what he gave and continues to give. I love you little Monkey
Loss of a Child Grief (peoples-health.com) / Sabrina McNeil (mom)Read >>
Loss of a Child Grief (peoples-health.com) / Sabrina McNeil (mom)
For parents loss of the child is the cruelest experience of their life. Such a death brings unbearable pain and irreparable loss to the parents. It becomes almost impossible for the parents to cope up with the pain and grief resulted from loss of a child. It is a natural phenomenon and no one should expect them to be the same people what they were before the loss of their child. The pain and grief resulted from the child’s death is not like other medical conditions that could be treated with medicines and recover. Death of child leaves an impact of the life of parents which at times alters their lifestyle. The loss of a child makes the parents face an experience of intense emotions and are frightening. Their emotions and feelings are natural and normal. Each parent may express his/her emotions in different ways and the emotions associated with the loss may be different. Following are some of the most common emotions which are found in the bereaved parents as a result of death of their child.
•Emptiness •Weeping •Longing for own death •Inability to focus or distraction •Profound sadness •Exhaustion •Anger •Feeling of insanity or guilt •Weight gain resulted from over eating •Weight loss occurred due to loss of appetite •Anxiety •Denial •Tightness of chest or throat and difficulty in breathing •Hyperventilating •Sensing child •Inability to perform regular activities •Feeling loneliness •Fear •Irritability with others •Questions like “Why” and “what if”
Grieving period after a child’s death is a long arduous journey. There are no laid down directions or guidelines which can help parents to reduce their pain and cope with the loss.
Somewhere Out There Lyrics (An American Tail) / Sabrina McNeil (mom)Read >>
Somewhere Out There Lyrics (An American Tail) / Sabrina McNeil (mom)
Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlight Someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight
Somewhere out there someone's saying a prayer That we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there
And even though I know how very far apart we are It helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star
And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky
Somewhere out there if love can see us through Then we'll be together somewhere out there Out where dreams come true ...
Nine months tomorrow. I Love you, Dylan. I think about you every moment of every day. I miss you and all the little things you would do. Our family is growing, but it will never feel complete if you are not with us. There will always be someone missing. My heart will always be aching to have all my children with me. That is my dream. Someday, somewhere, we will all find each other. That will be the happiest day of my life. That is the prayer I ask for each night. Love, MOM 2/12/2010
I said "God I hurt." And God said" I know." I said "God I cry a lot." And God said "That is why I gave you tears." I said "God I am so depressed." And God said "That is why I gave you Sunshine." I said "God life is so hard." And God said "That is why I gave you loved ones." I said "God my loved one died." And God said "So did mine." I said "God it is such a loss." And God said I saw mine nailed to a cross." I said "God but your loved one lives." And God said "So does yours." I said "God where are they now?" And God said "Mine is on My right and yours is in the Light." I said "God it hurts." And God said "I know."
(Posted on the wall at the Oklahoma City bombing site by K. C. and Myke Kuzmic Stockton CA )
I see the flowers starting to bloom. It reminds me of you. You liked to step on them. :) Always Stinky D. I love you Dylan. The flowers just wont look the same this year. I promise to still plant them if you promise to come stomp them. Love MOM 2/9/2010
Tears In Heaven - Eric Clapton / Sabrina McNeil (mom)Read >>
Tears In Heaven - Eric Clapton / Sabrina McNeil (mom)
Would you know my name If I saw you in heaven Will it be the same If I saw you in heaven I must be strong and carry on Cause I know I don't belong Here in heaven
Would you hold my hand If I saw you in heaven Would you help me stand If I saw you in heaven I'll find my way through night and day Cause I know I just can't stay Here in heaven
Time can bring you down Time can bend your knee Time can break your heart Have you begging please Begging please
(instrumental)
Beyond the door There's peace I'm sure. And I know there'll be no more... Tears in heaven
Would you know my name If I saw you in heaven Will it be the same If I saw you in heaven I must be strong and carry on Cause I know I don't belong Here in heaven
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